Yes now that I have done journeys as promised to myself ....and I am left with nothing much apart from expressing the deep feelings and expressions which already had a big share in this space.
So I can move on to a different domain of my life which mostly couldn't draw my attention towards it, though it has provided me with very much appreciated independence but I never managed or should i say intended to do justice with it and kept it ignorant due to my priority which highlighted the other areas always. I doubt anyone can even guess it...well I am talking about the professional aspects.
Since childhood I had many dreams and as i grew older i can recollect it as a long list of aspirations, to mention some sensible ones out of those were a Doctor first then a teacher then Astronaut....IAF Pilot....CBI agent.....Volleyball player .....and ultimately i thought I should just concentrate on being a good home maker :P coz it includes some of my favorite things i like to do over past 10-15 odd years like ...cooking and baby sitting, but then i realized every girl has to do these stuff eventually whether they like it or not So I took it for granted that these will be surely coming my way in future....and also i m doing it currently in bits n pieces so lets channel my energy where i can contribute to someone beyond my family n friends...again this was not done voluntarily rather I decided to take up a profession that my dad has been planning for me. Getting thru engineering college was again a totally interest-less and enthu-less experience :P but then I had to make my dad happy. And like always ....my dad's every wish for me comes true....thats reality, watever he wishes for me i get it eventually.....awkward. I wonder when my dad can will start wishing what i wish for. :|
Anyways coming back to the point finally after studies with the dedicated efforts i got a decent job and with a good luck backing me i got thru this super hot technology in my first job itself... so now after almost 4 years I have become a so called "Consultant" who is supposed to provide the streamlined solutions to the top managements for their ERP's with designing reports..planning etc....but I didn't feel even a single sensation in my blood to even aspire for doing something related to it till sometime back.
Yes you read it right ....till 2 months back I was all set to break away from this kind of life and move to a totally different dimension with dreams in my eyes and hopes of shaping up my future as i wanted it to be. But life had some different plans for me in store and after knowing that I totally lost it...and no other option or way could be worked out because none of it was leading me to the path where I intended to reach. So now that I am back into this business .... I have found a new hope for acquiring the knowledge.I have been challenged and I know if i work with a decent percentage of my abilities, I will end up with a recommendable job. And in the meantime my dreams can wait for me coz I am in the pursuit of acquiring more than what i ever wished for. Its certainly a wishful thinking! :)
With bundle full of aspirations I am hopeful again that I will become what I want to be instead of what situations or external factors will try to make me. It is about the dream that I have seen and I will not leave even a single stone unturned to gain whatever it takes to become what I have always dreamed of. :)
Someone once told me that whenever you are going to do something big, which seems impractical to people or something your soul connects to ....always make sure you announce it beforehand so that with so many eyes checking out on your progress your slightest doubt will vanish to live up to them and most importantly to your own expectations....sounds appropriate. But i never do things to show people, I do it because I want to stand tall in front of the mirror with pride and self respect in my eyes and face myself.
Good luck to myself..
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