Yes, I am back and with some substantial thoughts provoked by my ever exploring mind and heart which usually tussle over determining the roots or the purpose of the existence of each and every entity in my life.
Its not today or the recent past which has made me wonder the situations I have been through, It is the last three years which has made my nature more focused towards being intellectual and challenging. And I must admit it with the bottom of my soul that these struggles have helped me in identifying myself more and it seems these will prove to be the most precious assets in my later life which will enlighten me with the ground realities.
Ever since I moved out of my comfortable childhood which apparently was too early for me, I developed very clear principles and these got cultivated over the period of time. Anger, Pain, Hatred, Responsibility and Trust are some of the core standards around which they stood which were judged on the basis of self experience.
Today I consider myself to have experience of 20 years coz I don't remember anything from the time before 6 years and all the learning's are captured in the last 19 years and to be precise the positive learning's I would tag has happened in 15 years only...coz in between there was a period of ignorance which yielded mostly disappointment and letting down owns self respect (anyhow this also constitutes to a learning even though).
Having scaled down the facts and figures now I should come to the point of the anxiety I have faced in these periods, I often wonder has there been any single being who has not made any mistake in life, who has not taken even a single wrong decision in life... It is said that our past, present and future is governed by the choices we make, So is it possible that we should not make mistakes in life....and if we become so conscious about the failures then would it not become so freakingly awkward to always think about the consequences in the absence of liberty to take chances and following one's heart.
I personally object the idea of being cautious of failure all the time ignoring the instances of following one's heart and soul or being so calculative about the events. But on the other hand I do not suggest that one should blindly follow anything which appears lucrative and easy going regardless of identifying its authenticity and if we really believe in it or merely hypnotized by the spontaneity of the moment.
we make mistakes and that is a normal behavior of a human being but what sets it apart from a weak is to admit and acknowledge the mistakes and learn from them.
Personally my mistakes have taught me about myself and being guilty about them only overshadows the realization of the true self. So don't let these failures shatter the hopes of anxiety which arises to understand the purpose of one's existence here in this society, habitat and food chain.
P.S.: Explore the deepest and the darkest sides you have and conquer your own self.
